I AM EXHAUSTED. I FEEL LIKE MY HEART HAS BEEN STABBED AND IT CAN ONLY TAKE SO MUCH. I AM COMPLETELY CLUELESS. I DONT KNOW IF I WOULD BE WILLING TO TRADE MT SANITY FOR THE ONE THING THAT MAKES ME REALLY HAPPY. THIS ROLLER COASTER PLAYING OF EMOTIONS IS DRIVING ME CRAZY. ONE MINUTE I WOULD BE ECSTATIC, THEN NEXT MINUTE I WOULD BE EXTREMELY EXASPERATED. I DONT KNOW. I SHOULD JUST STOP AND GIVE UP. I DONT GET HOW PEOPLE CAN BE SO HEARTLESS. BUT I GUESS ITS MY FAULT. I HAD THAT FEELING AND I COMPLETELY IGNORED IT. LIKE I SAID, MY HEART CAN ONLY TAKE SO MUCH. I GUESS IM JUST GONNA HAVE TO LAY IT ON HIM. IM DONE PLAYING. IM NOT HAVING FUN ANYMORE. I STOPPED HAVING FUN THE MOMENT I STARTED HAVING REAL FEELINGS FOR HIM.

N TOGETHER NOW

ONE THING I LIKE MOST ABOUT GOING TO CONCERTS IS KNOWING AND SEEING PEOPLE GATHERING FOR THE SAME REASONS AND HAVING A GOOD TIME. EVERYONE SINGING TO THE SAME SONG. EVERYONE SWAYING FROM LEFT TO RIGHT. PEOPLE CHEERING ALL AT ONCE. JUST SEEING EVERYONE IN HARMONY.
YESTERDAY, I SAW PEOPLE AROUND ME, ONCE AGAIN, HAVE THAT SAME HARMONY. BUT THIS TIME, MOURNING FOR SOMEONE THAT HAS BEEN AN ABSOLUTE INFLUENCE TO ALOT OF FILIPINOS ALL OVER THE WORLD. ONCE I HEARD IT FROM MY FRIEND BACK IN THE PHILIPPINES, I KNEW IT WAS A FIRST OF MANY. WE MAY NOT HAVE MET HIM IN PERSON; KNOW HIM PERSONALLY, BUT HE HAS SURELY INSPIRED US IN HIS OWN WAYS.
I WAS AWED ON HOW ALOT OF FILIPINOS HERE RESPOND TO HIS ETERNAL REST. EVEN THE CAUCASIAN BARTENDER I WORK WITH WAS TELLING ME ABOUT IT. SURE HE COULDN'T PRONOUNCE HIS NAME PROPERLY BUT HE WAS AWARE. PEOPLE STILL CANT BELIEVE THE NEWS. IVE HEARD PEOPLE ACTUALLY CRYING AND FEELING DEPRESSED.
HE HAS DONE NOTHING BUT GOOD TO OUR COUNTRY. HE HAS DONE MUCH FOR THE TIME HE SPENT HERE ON EARTH. HE IS STILL LUCKY FOR HAVING MADE MOST OF EVERYTHING. HE JUST KEPT ON DOING AND KEPT GOING. HE LEFT US A BRILLIANT MEMORY... A LEGACY.. RIP FRANCIS MAGALONA.