BREAK TIME

THE PAST FEW DAYS HAS BEEN A DRAG. I FEEL SO EXHAUSTED. EXHAUSTED FROM FRUSTRATION. I TRY AND TRY TO STAY POSITIVE FOR MYSELF BUT I DONT KNOW, THINKING POSITIVE JUST SEEMS TO BE TOO MUCH OF A WORK LATELY. IVE BEEN HAVING.. I DONT EVEN KNOW. IT SEEMS LIKE IVE HAD THE LONGEST WEEK EVER. I CANNOT BELIEVE WERE STILL IN THE MONTH OF JANUARY, THAT WHOLE WEEK SEEMED LIKE AN ENTIRE MONTH FOR ME. I NEED SOMETHING TO CHANGE MY LIFE. I AM SO BORED. I HAVENT BEEN THIS BORED SINCE NEVER. I FEEL LIKE I AM LIVING IN MY OWN WORLD NOW. BUT NOT IN A GOOD CASTLE KINGDOM AND UNICORNS KIND OF WAY. I DONT WANT TO GO OUT TO CLUBS AND DRINK AND GET DRUNK TOO. IM NOT FEELING THOSE STUFF ANYMORE. ITS SO POINTLESS. IM SO SICK OF IT. PROBABLY BECAUSE IM NOT REALLY THAT KIND OF PERSON. I WANT TO EXPLORE. MAYBE TRY SOMETHING OUTDOORS. I WANT TO MEET NEW PEOPLE. DO NEW THINGS. I WANT TO ESCAPE THIS TRAGIC MOMENT OF MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. HAHA. YES I DO GET OVER DRAMATIC SOMETIMES. IM JUST SO BORED. I AM TRYING TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT THIS CURRENT SITUATION THAT I AM IN RIGHT NOW, BUT ITS JUST NOT WORKING. ITS JUST GIVING ME MORE AND MORE REASONS TO FEEL THIS WAY, LIKE IM NOT HAVING ENOUGH HARD TIME ALREADY. WELL, ITS A NEW YEAR AND A NEW MONTH NEXT WEEK. I AM DEFINITELY LOOKING FORWARD TO FEBRUARY. ITS SPRING TIME AND ITS MY FAVORITE TIME OF THE YEAR. ITS ALREADY LOOKING BETTER. YES. I AM FEELING THIS.