sleepless nights

i havent been getting some decent sleep. Im thinking, maybe, because i havent been engaging in anything. All i ever seem to do is lie in bed and stare at the tube. Im not even paying attention to whatever is on. I miss having to work for at least 14 hours a day. And now i feel so lazy. I have all this free time and im just wasting it. I havent even hit the gym for the past 2 weeks. I miss running for an hour and doing all those stuff. My license is suspended too. It hasnt even been a week and i feel like its been months already. And now im putting all the blame for it too. Im so bored and so broke. But its christmas time. And i love christmas. Its the time to forgive, and to just share the love. I havent written a list yet but i have it all in my mind. Im so excited. And best of all im not expecting anything in return. Just the thought of finding the right gift for the right person makes it all worth while. And to top it off, i am saying this from the bottom of my heart.